luckyshirt

May 16

I want to show you something.

I have been here for a long time now. Some of you have been with me since I got here, and have seen me go through so much. I still have yet to tell almost all of you some of the things I have seen and experienced just in the last year that you probably will not believe. Things I have kept to myself for different reasons and for different people. That is another story, but simply a hidden part of my life story, the one you have followed until now. That story will continue when the time comes.

Now I want to show you something else.

Thank you for following along. Whoever you are.

And if you’ve come this far, maybe you’re willing to come a little further.

May 15

Buying my ticket to the UK.

When I bought a ticket to DC, a record-breaking snowstorm closed the city.

When I bought a ticket to Tokyo, an earthquake tsunami nuclear reactor meltdown sort of happened.

So yeah. Heads up, UK.

If you want a good view of the incoming meteor.

tehawesome asked: That last post just made me FURIOUS with agreement.

I am so enraged with gladness.

Let’s take this outside.

I need the be here. With a piano, a MacBook, a sketchbook, a mechanical pencil, and a goose that lays peanut M&Ms.

Just for a year. Maybe five.

I’ve said before when advising creative students to major in creative things that the desire to create never goes away. Ever.

Over time, it becomes a need.

And there you are, a psych major in a cubicle. Not using your degree. And not creating. While the creative monkey on your back gets stronger, hungrier, and louder.

That to me is the creator’s hell.

I love my jobs. Working with people with disabilities and teaching are both incredibly rewarding. I am helping people. I’m not just making somebody else rich. And I am so lucky to be able to do both for really great pay.

Yet every. Single. Day. I am reminded that these jobs are using time that my mind and soul want to be using to make things. In 36 years, I have never had so many simultaneous projects going. And even though one of them is The Project, the one I was put here to do, I’m still hungry.

Like I said, the need doesn’t go away. It just grows. Probably until you snap and end up naked on a center divider somewhere in LA holding a sign that says “Will burn self for meaning.”

And pushing paper that isn’t art will only get you there faster.

Watch Fight Club. Watch American Beauty. Watch Office Space. It’s like that.

If you can make things, point your life that direction. Maybe you’ll starve physically. That’s a risk worth taking to avoid starving mentally.

(picture from here)

May 14

If anyone wants a donut, there is one outside the fourth grade classroom. (Taken with Instagram at Outside the fourth grade classroom)

May 13

I know. Just let me have this.

I don’t come to your blogs and tell you to stop talking about your cats.

So.

I’ve seen this movie twice.

I know.

The last time I saw a movie twice in the theater was Back to the Future II.

I turn into a child in the theater when this is on. It’s amazing.

And this guy right here is almost the entire reason. I fucking love the Hulk.

This Hulk above all Hulks is just so much fun to watch. And I knew it would take me twice to really understand what they did with the character this time around. And I was right. Round two was even better. The facial expressions and mannerisms of both Banner and Hulk are so much more meaningful after you’ve seen the movie once.

I think he brings most of the drama to this movie as well as most of the fun. You feel so much for Banner, yet it is so entertaining watching Hulk just have his way with the world.

For a character who in the earliest ads and trailers seemed to be an afterthought, I think he made the movie.

And now my kids are in the tub talking about how much they love the Hulk after seeing this with me today. And it’s so lame and so crazy, but I can’t love it enough.